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to hurt me
with
their words . . .
–
–
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–
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torture more
than anything said
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–
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saddest
note,
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f
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saddest
verse,
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saddest
song,
–
–
ever
heard . . .
–
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.
soul . . .
–
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–
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.
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dance
.
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f
.
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dying . . .
–
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.
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~ the
dying
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f
.
dreams . . .
–
–
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.
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dying
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.
hope . . .
–
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–
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.
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everything
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known . . .
–
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makes
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play . . .
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makes
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play . . .
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makes
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play . . .
–
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–
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the
fires
.
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f
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foreplay . . .
–
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courting
.
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f
.
cocaine . . .
–
–
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.
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taunting
.
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f
.
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–
–
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.
.
.
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n
d
–
–
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the
touch,
.
.
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n
d
.
.
the
tease,
.
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n
d
.
.
the
taste
.
o
f
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ANYTHING
.
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h
i
c
h
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might
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take
.
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t
.
.
all
away . . .
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–
–
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makes
.
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u
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play . . .
–
–
–
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makes
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play . . .
–
–
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.
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play . . .
–
–
–
.
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.
w
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h
–
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the
fires
.
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f
.
foreplay . . .
–
–
–
.
.
.
until
.
i
t
.
!BURNS!
!!BURNS!!
!!!BURNS!!!
–
–
everything
.
i
n
.
life
away . . .
–
–
–
.
.
.
~ until
.
y
o
u
.
finally
–
–
awake
.
a
n
d
.
proclaim:
“I am going
to make it
!MY WAY!”
.
.
a
n
d
.
.
“I will love
myself
!ANYWAY!”
–
–
–
.
.
.
~ yes,
.
i
t
.
!BURNS!
!!BURNS!!
!!!BURNS!!!
–
–
–
.
.
.
until
.
y
o
u
.
awake
.
a
n
d
.
proclaim . . .
–
–
–
.
.
.
~ until
.
y
o
u
.
awake
.
a
n
d
.
proclaim . . .
–
–
–
.
.
.
o
r
–
–
–
simply
lie
.
i
n
.
wait,
.
.
a
n
d
.
.
then
.
j
u
s
t
.
die
.
t
h
a
t
.
way.
Reflection: This was a forgotten personal struggle-themed poem that I wrote back in May of 2018 where the affected party regularly attacks himself/herself with his/her own internal negative voices. These internal negative voices pale in comparison to anything external going on in his/her life. The unforgiving, self-destructive habit not only creates a life of misery but also leads him/her to pursue external remedies – external remedies which conspire to make things worse. And we get the feeling that the internal – external negative cycle will continue until the affected party either finds a way to break out of the negative cycle or pays the ultimate price. This is one of the few poems I have written that was inspired by a play. I had gone to the Orlando Fringe Festival back in 2018, and saw the play called “Awake,” and the poem largely wrote itself from that.