☆°▪︎ THE OUTCAST ▪︎°☆

I

cried

today

.

w

h

e

n

.

I

.

saw

.

y

o

u

r

.

face . . .

.

.

.

a

n

d

no

matter

.

h

o

w

.

much

.

I

.

say,

.

o

r

.

how

many

ways

.

I

.

hate

.

a

n

d

.

berate

myself,

.

.

t

h

e

.

.

haunting

remains . . .

.

.

.

a

n

d

never

.

g

o

e

s

.

away . . .

.

.

.

 ~ it

never

.

g

o

e

s

.

away . . .

.

.

.

a

n

d

the

.

o

n

l

y

.

escape,

.

i

s

.

to

fade

the

pain,

the

guilt,

.

.

a

n

d

.

.

the

shame . . .

.

.

.

o

r

simply

.

g

o

.

away . . .

.

.

.

 ~ go

away,

.

a

n

d

.

erase

.

t

h

e

.

name . . .

.

.

.

Sometimes

I

wait

.

a

n

d

.

hope

.

f

o

r

.

warmer,

brighter

days . . .

.

.

.

 ~ I

wait

.

a

n

d

.

hope

.

f

o

r

.

warmer,

brighter

days . . .

.

.

.

b

u

t

it

.

i

s

.

just

.

a

.

wait . . .

.

.

.

 ~ just

a

.

short

.

a

n

d

.

gray,

somber

delay,

until

.

I

.

see

.

y

o

u

r

.

face

again . . .

.

.

.

 ~ until

.

I

.

see

.

y

o

u

r

.

face

again . . .

.

.

.

a

n

d

the

.

o

n

l

y

.

escape

.

i

s

.

to

fade

.

t

h

e

.

pain . . .

.

.

.

o

r

go

away . . .

.

.

.

 ~ the

.

o

n

l

y

.

escape

.

i

s

.

to

fade

.

t

h

e

.

pain . . .

.

.

.

o

r

go

away . . .

.

.

.

f

o

r

.

I

.

w

i

l

l

.

see

.

y

o

u

r

.

face . . .

.

.

.

 ~ I

.

w

i

l

l

.

see

.

t

h

a

t

.

bitter,

unforgiving

face . . .

.

.

.

again,

.

a

n

d

.

again,

.

a

n

d

.

again,

.

a

n

d

.

again,

.

a

n

d

.

again . . .

.

.

.

until

.

t

h

e

.

day . . .

.

.

.

 ~ until

.

t

h

e

.

day . . .

.

.

.

it

ends

.

t

h

i

s

.

way.

Reflection: This was a forgotten but powerful personal struggle-themed poem I wrote back in November of 2018 where the affected party is haunted by and cannot escape the guilt and shame experienced in the past. This is one of the few poems I have written that was inspired by a movie. This one was inspired by the moving, powerful movie: “In Bruges.”